“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken.
If you want to make sure of keeping it intact,
you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal.
Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries;
avoid all entanglements;
lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness.
But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change.
It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”
-C.S. Lewis
Vulnerable.
Susceptible to attack.
Ability to easily be wounded.
Change.
To become transformed.
To move on.
A different experience.
2 things in life I had a fear of embracing.
Accepting change and experiencing vulnerability.
I seemingly kept most of myself locked away
to keep from encountering the fate of either.
What an impossibility. I was foolish.
I needed to change, and I had to change through vulnerability.
Each time he said,
“My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.”
2 Corinthians 12:9
I'd known this.
And ignored this.
God over the past year
has been changing everything about me.
Especially my heart.
Heart
Hollow Organ
Center of thoughts and emotions
Innermost part
Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
Proverbs 4:23 (NIV)
Our heart carries all we are: our
secrets, ambitions, fears, desires, feelings...
our heart is valuable.
As a child of God,
a follower of Jesus Christ,
we are taught to guard our hearts...
and only one deserves our whole heart:
Him.
He wasn't in charge of my whole heart.
Pieces of my heart were enwrapped in other 'things.'
I don't know how to express
what God has done in my life over the past year.
I don't even think I could sum it up in a few paragraphs.
But know, change is necessary. It's necessary for growth.
It's necessary if you want to become closer to God.
"to change is to risk something, making us feel insecure. not to change is a bigger risk, though we seldom feel that way. there is no choice but to change.
people, however, cannot be motivated to change from the outside. all our motivation comes from within."
––Ward sybouts
God had to motivate me to change. I had to be vulnerable to Him.
Locking my heart away never worked;
I would have never become who I am now.
So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses,
so that the power of Christ can work through me.
That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses,
and in the insults, hardships, persecutions,
and troubles that I suffer for Christ.
For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 (NLV)
